Ok So Im New Here, And I Figured This Is Where You Put Your Fan Fics :D
Well I Have One That I Wrote And I Thought I Might Post It On Here And See What You Guys Think
So Please Comment On It, Cos Comments Are Love :D
Well Anyway, Here It Is.
Ps Its A Death Flick So You Might Want Tissues If You Get Emotional.
At The End On The World!!It’s a Beautiful dark cathedral, Mikey thinks as the dismal parade of black cars slowly drive down the wet gravel boulevard. The dark cathedral standing alone under a war of black storm clouds.
Jess would have wanted it this way.
Heavy rain pelts down from the blackened skies making the cathedrals stone steps slippery with mud and trampled remains of flower arrangements. Gerard and Frank climb out of the black car, turning the collars of their coats up for protection from the down pour. Gerard turns back to help Mikey and Mikey lets him, ignoring the rain that thrashes down over them and soaks through their clothing.
Mikey’s face is already drenched with tears. He feels he’s been drowning for days.
The congregation hurries into the old building, the soles of their shoes squeaking on the wet tiled floor, water dripping from quickly closed umbrellas.
Gerard leads Mikey gently to the pew at the front and they sit down with Frank.
In the pew opposite them sat Jess’s family, dressed in mourning black. Her mother crying heavily, deep sobs making her tiny body heave with waves of grief.
Mikey watches her, feeling sick and weak from his own pain and despair. Mikey hasn’t stopped crying since her death. He hasn’t eaten. He hasn’t slept. How can he without Jess there to hold him and lull him into his dreams?
At their house, Mikey cried so hard made himself sick after finding her body on the bathroom floor in a pool of blood. When the doctors told him the grave news he passed out from sheer horror and shock. When he awoke later, hurting all over and burry-eyed from the tears he had cried in his sleep, he was alone:
Jess was gone.
After her death, the world shrank away and everything felt suddenly cold and dark and endless. No way out. No light. No hope. She gave him all of those. She brought light to him.
But now Jess is gone and Mikey is surrounded in darkness and there’s no one to save Mikey this time.
He cried and endless river of tears in the darkness, curled up on their bed, in the same clothes he was wearing the day he found her body, frightened, hurting and alone.
Drowning.
Gerard and Frank have done their best to be there for him, to be patient. They watch over Mikey day and night, begging him to eat something, or to try and sleep but their cries fall upon deaf ears.
Jess was a friend of Gerard and Frank, but to Mikey she was the world. Jess was his everything and now that she’s gone, nothing else matters anymore.
There’s nothing left.
The priest approaches the altar and begins to speak but Mikey does not listen. He’s lost in his thoughts, re-living bitter-sweet memories, nothing else is real.
Jess’s smile and her beautiful sapphire eyes, her infectious laughs and her loving heart, all of her gone, smashed to bits and ripped apart and all that is left is emptiness.
I’m so sorry Jess.
Mikey sobs over and over inside, I’m so sorry, baby, I’m sorry I wasn’t there. I’m sorry, I’m sorry!!
Sorry I couldn’t save you…
He closes his eyes, red raw from crying and tries desperately to picture Jess’s beautiful face again. But now all he can see is blood and ruin.
Jess is gone.
Opening his eyes, Mikey finds himself by her coffin, looking down at her peaceful, dead, body. Her hands grasping red roses, eye make up perfect and black, lips deep red like the blood Mikey found her in.
So still.
So lonely.
So dead.
Sobbing miserably, Mikey turns away from her casket and Gerard places his arms around his brothers’ shoulders and hugs him close. Giving into his pain, Mikey weeps, bitterly against Gerard’s shoulder, his tears soaking through his big brothers shirt, not caring who can hear him. But crying doesn’t help Mikey feel better.
Nothing can.
Lonely years lay ahead of him but every second of life without Jess is agony, empty and cold.
It hurts him so much!
Every passing day blurs into the next. Cutting through Mikey’s already broken heart. Every tear burning like acid on his cheeks, falling endlessly.
It’s hell without Jess.
It just isn’t living!
After the funeral service, Gerard drives Mikey home. Mikey stares out the window at the rain but all he can see are tears, and all he can feel is a horrible icy vacuum where Jess’s loving embrace once held him. It’s then Mikey realizes- He can not bare to be apart from Jess any longer.
I’m sorry, baby, I’m so sorry…
Back at the small house Mikey and Jess once lived in together, Gerard helps Mikey down the hall and puts him to bed. Mikey curls up sleepless and shivering under the covers as he hides his tear-stained face in the pillow Jess once slept on.
“I’ll be in the living room if you need me.” Gerard says anxiously. “Just please, please call me if you need anything. Mikey. Little brother?”
Mikey does not answer and Gerard turns away sadly, his heart breaking, and he leaves his devastated brother alone with his grief.
Mikey lies there, sobbing brokenly into crumpled sheets which still smell of Jess, as hours pass. The black skies outside darken further, swallowing the sun completely, as heavy rain beats down, against the window of his bedroom.
Still weeping, his exhausted body wracked with sobs, Mikey slowly reaches into the bedside table, sluggishly pulling a small container of sleeping pills into view.
I’m drowning without you…
Gerard had bought the pills a few days earlier in attempts to make Mikey sleep but Mikey had refused to take them so Gerard put them away safely in a small box in the spare room, where he though Mikey would never find them. But Mikey knows Gerard to well, he knew exactly where they were.
I can’t live like this anymore, I’m so sorry…
Popping the lid off the small container, Mikey empties the bottle out into the palm of this hand. There are dozens of little white pills, small, round and powdery. It doesn’t take Mikey long to finish them all.
Please forgive me…
The sound of the pounding rain outside fades to small pattering as the world grows darker still, Mikey stops shivering under his bed covers and his tears stop falling.
“I’m so sorry Jess.” He whispers as his body slowly grows numb and the endless darkness comes to claim him at last. “I’m so sorry…”
Don’t be sorry, baby. You have nothing to be sorry for…
Jess?
Yes, Mikey, I’m here. I’m here for you now, it’s alright…
I-I couldn’t stay here without you Jess. It was so hard and-and I tired-I swear I tried!-But every second was torture! I’m sorry I wasn’t strong enough to stay.
Shhhhhh it’s okay now, baby, it’s okay…
I’m so cold.
It’s okay…
I can’t see you, why can’t I see you? It’s so dark here. There’s no light. Aren’t I supposed to see a light? Jess help me, I’m scared!!
Shhhhhh, baby, don’t be scared. Soon you’ll be here with me and then you’ll see me, I promise…
I missed you so much! I felt so lost!
I know baby. I missed you too, more the anything…
I love you!
I love you too, Mikey…
“Mikey? OH MY GOD MIKEY!! What did you-? Mikey, wake up!!!”
Who’s that?
It’s Gerard. He’s found the pill bottle. He’s trying to save you…
NO! No, I want to be with you!!
He’s shaking you, he’s trying to wake you up. He’s crying…
Oh No! Oh f*ck!! Gerard no!! I didn’t want to leave him with this, he shouldn’t have to. I’m sorry, I am so, so sorry…Jess? Jess, are you still there?
Yes Mikey, I’m here. It won’t be much longer now, so be brave. I love you, Michael James Way and I hate that you were hurting…so sorry we ended up this way…
I don’t care, I’m just glad you’re here now. I love you so much Jess. I always, always will!!
“Come on Mikey please…Mike, don’t do this to me! Please just hold on, okay. The ambulance is on it’s way. Please, wake up!! Mikey, please, please don’t go…Mikey? MIKEY!!!”
I’m sorry Gerard, I’m sorry I had to leave you with this…it wasn’t your fault, it never was…please forgive me…
“MIKEY WAKE UP!! Please, Mikey, it’s Gerard, your big brother! Please, talk to me! Mikey!”
Cold. Jess, I’m so cold.
I know baby, I know. But I’ve taken your hands and you’ll feel mine soon, I promise. I will never let go of you again, Mikey I will never let go of you again…
I love you Jess…Always!!
Forever…
“Mikey? …Mikey! Mikey, don’t to this, please! …Mikey? …Mikey?!? Oh god…”
I’m sorry Gerard, I love you, my brother. Goodbye.
Subject: At The End Of The World (FanFic) 
